one good stretch before our hibernation

Australia: the Great Land Down Under

2009-06-24T15:21:00.002+08:00

Do you know why Australia is often called the Land Down Under?

Australia is the only continent with a permanent population that is entirely below the equator. It lies totally within the southern hemisphere, hence the name. From an Australian point of view, it seems as if the northern hemisphere continents are ' down under'! Look at a globe and you will understand why. "The land down under" refers to its position on Earth.

gimme something to do!

2009-06-24T15:05:00.003+08:00

omgoodness, this is the third day of the week that i rot about half the day off... one intern and one perm are on one week's leave and we are supposed to be very busy but we are not! i'm bored to tears haha. that's why office job is not my thing cuz i can't sit still..............i'm sure guan knows what i mean. urgh. but well i must say this internship has been going pretty well for me, i don't even dread coming to work! i know i shouldn't be complaining because:
1. i get to go online and log onto msn
2. i am in the email threads a group of friends are in and the messages are damn funny, one day we can hit about 150 threads? HAHAHA
3. i get to go for tea break at 4pm!
4. i can report anytime before 930am and knock off anytime after 6pm
5. everyone is really nice and patient here
6. i get to meet friends like sanduo, douglas for lunch because they work nearby!

okay i still have another 3 more hours to go before i go meet guan for dinner, yayyy! there's ultimate training tmr after work, yay. ice cold beer and transformer on friday, yay. huiling and bro are coming back on sunday, yay.
research done by experts proved that having random and a variety of thoughts do relax one's mind and relieve stress.

your eyes and my eyes.

2009-06-20T14:23:00.005+08:00

you see things in black and white, but i don't. there are infinite shades of all colours for everything. things are never that simple in life. don't try to simplify it, try to understand it.

by the way, the snap judgements, the ones that come to us quickly and easily without hesitation, are the ones that haunt us forever.

how great is out God

2009-06-18T08:31:00.005+08:00

when you get hurt really deeply, when you are still struggling so much with the hurting, you will realize that the one and only person who can heal you is none other than Jesus... i'm so glad i took one day off to attend CCS youth camp. i experienced God's love and healing so strongly that i really, really didn't want to leave the camp. so i stayed over at the camp for two nights and went for work straight from camp. thanks be to God, because things that come from Him will never be of waste or redundancy, every single second spent at the camp was worth it. i love worshipping God so much, i really can feel Him speaking to me through the songs, through all the words. truly Jesus is the greatest love that anyone could ever know... countless tears i've shed, but those tears were not of hurt nor pain, it's tears of comfort and relief because God was healing me, He was telling me to let Him love me, to trust Him, to let Him make my path straight... no amount of words can justify how i truly feel. thank God (:

fast and furious to icon

2009-06-15T10:57:00.006+08:00

today, my brother drove exceptionally fast than usual. for those who do not know yet: my brother drives a sports car - nissan silvia - and he usually speed, so fast that i am kept at the edge of my seat throughout the whole ride... although i'm sleepy in the morning, i don't fall asleep at all in his car because i am so intimidated by his driving. if i have balls, they probably shrink every morning when i get a lift from him to work. it's not because he has lousy driving skills, he drives way too fast, and swerve in and out, cut lanes here and there. i wonder how his girlfriend managed to get used to it...i still have a month to get used to it. oh and i usually wear shorts and slippers before changing into pants/skirt and heels at tanjong pagar because his car is so low that when i try to get into the back seat from the front, my skirt almost split HAHAHAHA. BUT i am truly thankful i get a ride from him and pass squeezing with the morning crowd on the train (: i am so not whining, just a mini column of my daily fast & furious experience.

please let me go melbourne..!

Marley & Me

2009-06-14T15:08:00.003+08:00

i've always wanted to catch this movie, not because of owen wilson or jennifer anniston, but simply for the fact that i adore dogs. i really love them. i may not have an ocean of knowledge about dogs, the different kind of breeds, their specialties, their habits, and such. in fact, i don't know much about them but i can staunchly declare that i just have this affinity for them, really. marley & me is such a moving show, in its simplest yet subtle manner.

i used to keep a dog when i was primary three for two years. i was closest to him, at least i'd think so. he was called charcoal. he used to play hide and seek with me, and he knew how to play with me only! i am not the best owner because i was lazy to bring him for a walk and i didn't train him well. i was only nine but even so, i know i loved him with all my heart. one of the saddest days in my life was the day he went missing, i know he was seized because he wouldn't leave me on his own accord. i cried everyday for a period of time, and i went to look for him after school on my own everyday. when i watched marley & me, i could feel so strongly for john's (starred by owen wilson) love for him, so pure and so genuine. yes it was just a show, but trust me, i think owen wilson probably did a flawless job acting out his affection for marley or he truly felt it from his heart. the show reminds me so much of charcoal, his cutest moments, his mischief, his wit, his misbehaviour, and most of all, his heart for us. i always wanted to keep a dog again but i don't want to go through the heartbreak of losing one again... the phrase below (by john in the movie) describes perfectly about a dog, just what i would say about this true friend.

"A dog has no use for fancy cars, big homes, or designer clothes. A water log stick will do just fine. A dog doesn't care if you'r rich or poor, clever or dull, smart or dumb. Give him your heart and he'll give you his. How many people can you say that about? How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special? How many people can make you feel extraordinary?"

How many people can make you feel rare and pure and special?
Give him your heart and he'll give you his.
How many people can do this? Not even your loved ones can do this sometimes. A man can betray you, but a dog won't.

i hope

2009-06-14T13:48:00.007+08:00

i hate to admit this but i jump to conclusions too quickly and i do it too often. i keep telling myself not to think too much but these words i tell myself just keep falling though. i ignore wise words and higher powers, why do i defy? too many unanswered questions i have... guess i still have a lot to learn, a lot to listen. well, somestimes after all, life comes up with a better idea.

don't sweat.

cold water

2009-06-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

i'm losing the warmth of your hands. i thought the nightmares found their way out but to only realise that they lurk just underneath my bed, ready to get out and jump on me any time i fall... i still can't see an end of this darkness. all that surround me is cold water - deceitful hopes. right now, at this moment, i wish i have never made that mistake. a mistake that led to a series of painful afflictions. you won't understand because you never had to go through these, because i won't allow that.

fuck you.
fuck these cold water around me.

faintheart

2009-06-10T22:12:00.004+08:00

there are many things i want to do, i want to say, i want to change. but i just can't bring myself to put my thoughts into actions... as a result, i'm in a constant dilemma. also, (and you're right) i get frustrated very easily recently. you don't even need to spill coffee on my dress to get me upset, you just need to whistle beside me and i get annoyed. perhaps this is a little exaggerated but i'm just generally in an unpleasant mood haha. i don't know whether is it because of the past, or is it because of the current situations i am in. then, the news about H1N1 flu in melbourne is making me feeling worse. i can't imagine how i'd take it IF i can't go melbourne in the end, seriously. i'd say the highlight of this vacation, to me, will definitely be the melbourne trip... of course, there are other stuff like my internship, the return of jiunn, huiling and youcai and that one particular thing. i just have to go melbourne, it's really my last chance to find bro before school officially ends for me, spend time with him. and it's also almost the perfect way for me to sort some things out and...unwind myself. i seriously need to take a break from everything here in singapore. it's true i tend to think a lot, sometimes too much for my own good. but some things remain, facts don't lie for they speak for themselves.

has something changed?
have you changed?
have i changed?
has there been a problem?
has there been an issue?
have we found the solution?
have we found the answers?
have we gone our own ways?

tell the fainthearted.

time plays cheat

2009-06-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

i can't believe this is my second week at ICON already, time passes so quickly. i was working on the same assignment - a hotel group's competitive analysis - the whole day today. i was initially quite frustrated that i spent so long on it until my director appeared so relaxed about it and said "sure sure, of course you pass it to me anytime you are done tmr!" so it means i'm actually ahead of time since i haven't done the pie charts and summaries only. it's amazing how fast time passes when you are occupied... Watching an one-hour show seems quite a long time when you are bored. Having an one-hour lunch break at work is, however, damnnnnn short. i went to meet another friend from hall for lunch today. i called him, walked to the hawker, found seats and waited for him -- all these took up 20 minutes already! so we only left 40 minutes to eat, to chat and to drink, including time for me to get back to office! but well, i overshot by 15 minutes today haha. the three hours in the morning before lunch break always feel like an hour plus dota game to me! i remember how painfully slow time was during the exam period............it was torturous. you see, time plays cheat. they slow down or fast-forward as and when they like...

i just wanna fast-forward to mid-june when jiunn and huiling come back and slow it down again as i spend time with them then fast-forward to mid-july when i go over to melb and slow it down again while i am there. yes i am wishful and foolish.

don't eat and shit at the same place

2009-06-08T22:54:00.005+08:00

today i met my good friend from hall for lunch, really glad to meet her again, i miss her a lot. i realised that there are so many friends whom i miss and haven't met for a long time, it's time i stop getting too involved in my own pursuits. actually do i even have concrete pursuits? okay, i don't even wish to touch on spiritual pursuits... anyway, my friend told me that these two friends were talking about us. i'm not surprised at all... but well, it reminded me of some unhappy stuff and got me so bothered again the whole day. i hate it... i don't blame my friend. everything happens for a reason. on my way home, something another friend told me last month struck me, "jo, don't eat and shit at the same place." so i asked myself, "am i still doing that?" i know it sounds a little senseless but really, i think the reason why i feel the way i feel now is because i'm still eating and shitting at the same place. i should start eating at somewhere clean and pristine... the reason why you have your problems...or had...is probably cuz you ate and shit at the same place too many times and it's...detrimental to our health. of course i worsened the conditions by injecting it with a little of my insanity and a little too much of my sensitivity. then why the hell are we still hanging around this place, may i ask?

what a weekend.

2009-06-07T22:55:00.004+08:00

i've been stuck at home for the past few days cuz i'm down with flu. good and bad. good: i got a realisation. bad: i missed church. anyway regarding that something good, i realised i've stopped doing something which i was guilty of. perhaps the distance helps... like really stopped for good. but even when there's proximity and opportunity, i don't do it. in fact, i don't even have the intention to, not even the slightest bit. can't believe i'm not gonna stay in hall anymore, i'm really upset but oh well, i have to do what i have to do. so, i shall have no regrets, no complaints, but i do have a lot of longing still. aiyah screw it, it's where a lot of bad things happened too. okay, work resumes tmr.

hello, it's been a while.

2009-06-07T01:50:00.004+08:00

i'm back. i read several of the latest posts on this blog before it was neglected by me for about half a year. and man, i was thinking "so many things have changed in the past six months." funny, the latest post's title was "it's a good start". and now i rebuke it, "what a good joke?" the past six months was so surreal, it was like a dream. even now, there are some things i just can't reconcile with. life, you've got me fooled again. God, you've got me tested again. you know, realities always smack you in the face when you've painted life too beautifully? realities always fall short of your expectations.about two months ago, this friend of mine told me, "jo, don't let these take your positivity away, your positivity is part of who you are." i question myself now, "just who am i?"

it's a good start.

2009-01-04T23:32:00.004+08:00

I really enjoyed myself at CCS today! (: Firstly, it's the first Sunday of 2009! Secondly, we played quite a number of games, so managed to interact more with the people there! Lastly & most importantly, my lil brother went with me! I truly enjoyed his company. I think it's the good feeling of having a family member going church with me... I guess it's an inner longing which I didn't realise until today, awesome (: I texted him just now after he booked in and he replied saying he wants to go CCS again next week cuz he really likes the environment and he was happy there today! (: He also finds Jocelyn and Lydia amiable and amusing HAHA! They're really soo funny..reminds me of zhuzhu and I (not so much now though). And my goodness many at church said he looks like me! That's so rare and odd, no one ever said that. Anyhow, yayy I love my brother, he is sooooo funny. Hmmm I don't like resolutions but I made several today during DG nonetheless.

Digging Deeper and Experiencing God (:

This broken & contrite heart

2009-01-02T02:34:00.005+08:00

2008 was a really tough year... I don't say this every year. Growing up, in the past few years especially, makes me realise that promises and resolutions are, really, seldom resolute.We make them, then we break them; others make them, then they break them. So much so, we've unknowingly banalized the phrase "Promises/resolutions are made to be broken". Surely, pointing a finger at you, I have the rest pointing back at myself... I've been blind, for I always see not my own iniquities, but others' flaws. I've been deaf, for I always hear not the unpleasantness about myself, but the pleasantness. And partly because of this blindness and this deafness, 2008 was a lot tougher than any other... I asked myself on the last day of 2008 what would my resolutions be for 2009, I thought of many possible ones but I just couldn't focus on any. I don't want to make resolutions...lest I break them again? Maybe, I am not sure. My heart tells me it's tired of severed promises and broken resolutions. I reflected on the past year but what lies ahead, I really don't know. And so, on the last day of 2008, I offered God my broken spirit, my broken bones and my broken heart. He will lead.

I don't want a heart for myself, I want a heart for Christ.
And this broken & contrite heart of mine, I know He will not despise.

Have an awesome one, everyone. (:

2008-12-31T03:34:00.002+08:00

What's next?

passed & gone.

2008-12-21T23:15:00.007+08:00

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we met,
we spoke,
we hugged,
we walked,
we laughed,
we cherished,
we tripped,
we stumbled,
we fell,
we hurt,
we climbed,
we doubted,
we weakened,
we abandoned,
we broke,
we talked,
we cried,
we held,
we pulled,
we recovered,
we stood,
we prayed,
we believed,
we overcame,
we smiled
we survived,
and then...
we triumph.

when the old dies,
the new lives.

let me introduce to you...

2008-12-20T18:07:00.005+08:00

2He is small BBKK (:
So cuteeee right!
I don't usually like such stuff but..this is exceptional.
In fact, I've eyed it since it was first launched few years back!
Although I really like it, I didn't get it in the past cuz I found it overpriced.
BUT I bought it yesterday at Melaka!
Cuz it cost less than half of the price in Singapore! Goodness me!
Yayyy.
I feel relaxed looking at bbkk haha! He really looks like..someone (:
See that uncanny familarity? Say yes!
Jo is a happy woman who just returned from a good trip to Melaka,
had a great (and funny and random) chat with d,
received a meaningful picture (eternity!),
is going to play DOTA with her brother later,
is going to run now and have dinner soon!
Very random but yeah, later guys!

hate me today.

2008-12-18T22:31:00.003+08:00

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one of my all favourite songs...really love it.
sing it for mummy.

hero to zero

2008-12-15T00:20:00.002+08:00

sleep is the easiest thing to do.
you just close your eyes.
but for so many of us,
sleep seems out of our grasp.
we want it but we don't know how to get it.
but once we face our demons, our fears,
and turn to each other for help,
night time isn't so scary,
because you realize you're not alone after all.

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hold it back

2008-12-13T22:09:00.004+08:00

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you don't know.
you don't understand.
you don't see.
i've been made to believe, once, twice, many times.
then it's back to square one...
for the first time,
you are unpredictable.

~!@#$%#@!@#

2008-12-12T22:44:00.004+08:00

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not funny..................

and the project begins

2008-12-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

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reasons for the delay:
uncertainty and apprehension
the reason for the commencement:
faith, trust, patience and God - love.
(:

the unknown man

2008-12-10T22:44:00.005+08:00

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it's the holidays and my roomie and i
decided to save money by checking out
half of the room and share a transponder (key).
last night i kept the transponder in my track shoes
and locked the door before i went to bed.
(she hadn't return when i went to bed)
at 7am this morning,
i heard the door unlocking and opening,
it wasn't my roomie.
it was an unknown guy and i couldn't see clearly.
he saw me opening my eyes and then he went "oh shit."
then he quickly got out of the room and locked it.
he actually locked it so i thought he meant no harm
so i was quite positive that it's my roomie's friend.
after i managed to contact her,
she said...she didn't tell anyone where we kept the transponder.
and that none of her friends came to our hall at all.
and it's defiinitely not any of the C4 guys, cuz i complained to one of them
and none of them would be awake at 7am.
so tell me, who the hell is that guy?!
i was quite freaked out this morning,
and after talking to my roomie,
WE are freaked out.
@!#!@#%#$@#^%
i should keep a gun in my room,
sounds like a pretty good plan to me.

sunny, scary.

2008-12-09T21:21:00.003+08:00

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help. holidays are seriously burning a hole in my pocket.
had quite a good tanning session at sentosa.
my whole body is acting from yesterday's training...
the movie 'quarantine'...i was honestly scared out of wits.
can't shake off the jittery still.
the movie was filmed from a first person point of view,
(sounds like 'the blair witch project' right)
so it felt so real.
so real i was gasping along with the characters in the film.

anyway, i learnt that a wise man always treat a stranger with respect for he could be gazing on the face of an enemy. how true...

i'm loving this feeling.

2008-12-08T21:56:00.007+08:00

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today's training was really tiring but good!
one of the muddiest training!
or rather cuz i was doing crunches in a pool of muddy water - . -
i'm aching all over now but it feels kinda good to be shag haha.
goodness i took more than half an hour to bathe...
cuz i was washing a lot of stuff.
although we were damn shag, we still cooked pasta for dinner!
and it's one of my favourites - carbonara!
ohhhhh AND,
starbucks caramel macchiato and cinnamon roll (aka 'sex in the mouth')
are on their way back, awww i'm feeling so satisfied haha.
anyway, the highlight of today is...
i woke up feeling lighthearted.
i was in good spirits.
guess i finally had some issues resolved.
(even though you weren't around)
thanks for the love, the trust & the patience.
the way God turns things around is really amazing,
at least for me...
perhaps you could feel it too,
somehow i just feel that you do (:

nobody knows it but me.

2008-12-08T02:07:00.004+08:00

I have always loved this song very much.
And right here, right now,
this song is dedicated to you...
love, jo.

the love, and the light

2008-12-07T22:27:00.004+08:00

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When we were little, night time was scary,
because there were monsters hiding right under our beds.
When we get older, the monsters are different...
Self-doubt. Loneliness. Regret.
And though we may be older and wiser.
We still find ourselves scared of the dark.

Today, God reminded me that Satan's weapons are:
Guilt. Shame. Condemnation.
These are powerful weapons.
Sometimes I still find myself feeling,
guilty and shameful of the mistakes I've made in the past.
It's really a horrible feeling...
I know when I feel this way,
I'm actually allowing Satan to triumph over me.
So, thank God for His constant reminder that
we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.
God will fight our battles and really, God's heart for us is:
No sin. No judgment. No condemnation. No shame.
We shall not be afraid of the darkness or the monsters,
for God is Light, He is love and He is our defense.
Let us dwell in this love, in this light (:

I so love worshiping God, every moment of my life (:

so easy to fall.

2008-12-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

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even if you cannot hear my voice,
i'll be right beside you dear...

can you feel me?

2008-12-06T07:07:00.005+08:00

you know...
sometimes trying is really not good enough...
there's only so much i could ask,
and, only so much i could guess...
although it's been less than a week,
it feels kinda scary and lost...
thank God for the distractions around,
so that i won't drown in this uncertainty, this uneasiness.
why can't you see i'm feeling this way..?
i'm not over-reacting,
because i know how this works too well.
but i guess..it's fine, i'll withdraw and
hold this up for another week or two.

what's wrong

2008-12-06T00:43:00.003+08:00

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.........................
so odd.
feels like the beginning of the nightmare many months ago.
really..don't wanna go through it again.
but i think i tried enough.
can't figure out why, can't figure out what.

2008-12-05T02:28:00.003+08:00

i can't help but ask,
why the indifference lately..?
it's kinda hurtful..sigh.

patience

2008-12-05T00:13:00.000+08:00

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My imagination is out of focus.

this place makes me wonder...

2008-12-04T06:04:00.005+08:00

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deafening music.
immoral behaviours.
redundant splurgings.
inconsiderate and ceaseless pushing.
illusive lightings.
unwanted temptations.
foolish actions.
especially for me, bad memories and
the effort to try to enjoy.

there was no excitement,
for the most part, indifference and tiresome.
and many times, disgust and pain.
i painted a deceptively pleasing mask,
because nobody saw that the mask was suffocating.
underneath the mask were desires,
a desire to make sense of everything,
and a desire for higher meanings.

i resent this place, i honestly do.

why can't you see what I see?
right, who am i to make such expectations?
on what rights i impose my values and my perpectives?
but i only got this to say,
don't trust our eyes when our imagination is out of focus.
the imagination is...
what we think we want and what we really want.
what we get now and what we will suffer later.
"it should be fine" and "it is not fine".
when our imagination is out of focus,
the things we thought to be satisfying and gratifying,
could take away so much from us later.
the focus is thinking right and having the right thinking.
focus first, then trust our eyes.
don't choose the easy way out.
because it is barely easier next time...

do you know where your heart is?

2008-12-02T21:57:00.001+08:00

steamed

2008-12-02T02:04:00.005+08:00

A friend was confiding in me, it was related to someone 'cheating' on her boyfriend. I wasn't surprised because: 1) It's that girl and, 2) I've heard such stories too many times. But for goodness' sake, this isn't cool at all. Every time I hear such stories, I feel so upset and disappointed. Is cheating on one's partner part and parcel of life now? Another friend said, "Yeah man, it's normal, no big deal." I mean YEAH it may be true but it is NOT a small deal.
Not cool at allllllllllllllll. And he said something like "Too bad, just live with it." I was really quite peeved. I didn't say much, or rather I was too lazy to rebuke. I've been lazy to express what's on my mind recently. Then again, fine, everyone has his or her own expectations. But damnit, this shit is happening everywhere. Still, such action isn't justified, at all. Just because other people do it, doesn't mean it's fine you do it. People are cruel, I am cruel. But I just freaking hate the cheating. Spoil my freaking mood. The amount of profanities in my mouth now are unimaginable.

shhh, let it be.

2008-12-01T21:55:00.007+08:00

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Sometimes the feeling of having no idea..is exciting.
The not knowing, what might happen,
what could be or what could not.
It is all possibilities.
What crushes that excitement?

Assumptions.

timeless pictures priceless words

2008-11-30T23:44:00.006+08:00

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I love writing but I'm never good at it.
I love photography but I never gave myself a chance to learn it.
I'm always so captivated by exotic writings and pictures.
Sometimes I wish I were good at these!

Why then, O brawling love, O loving hate,
O anything of nothing first create;
O heavy lightness, serious vanity,
Misshapen chaos of well‐seeming forms,
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire, sick health,
Still‐waking sleep, that is not what it is!

Shakespeare

Oxymoron so ingeniously expressed by Shakespeare..I love it.

This is Mono Lake

And this is a real shot! Check out the reflection on the lake.. This picture reminds me of the times in secondary school when I often surfed the internet for the world's most beautiful natural sceneries. So many places I desired to visit but I can't even remember the names now. Love the nature. The Earth is definitely God's canvas and He is one awesome painter, the only flawless one actually.

What a random post haha. Christmas is coming (:

hello memories.

2008-11-30T02:00:00.005+08:00

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Although it was a rather short meet up today,
I definitely had my share of fun with you guys man!
Catching up and stuff! (: Oh and gaming!
Feels like the good old times...
CS, chng teng and ban mian.
Everyone commented on the price of the drinks,
and it was one after another!
It's not insignificant or pointless,
I think it was quite interesting, really.
Because it shows that we really grew up there together huh?
Anyway the last match of dota was pretty intense!
The I'm-agitated-when-I'm-gaming yellings.
The hysterical laughters.
The fixated stares at the screen.
The my-ass-is-rooted sitting positions.
The relentless sound of clicking the mouse.
And the..feeling of having a good time.
I smell nostalgia, at least for me (:

Anyway, to Jac & Miss Chew: 加油! Final lap! All the best (:

discomposed

2008-11-29T05:33:00.003+08:00

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See no evil
Hear no evil
Speak no evil
And I believe also, think no evil...

when a concept is born

2008-11-28T03:19:00.003+08:00

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Because the young ones are not jaded,
they are willing to take the risk.
Because the young ones have yet to come to know betrayal,
they do the trusting more easily.
Because the young ones only know the concept of love,
they are less likely to feel the hurt and the pain.
Because the young ones are not corrupted,
they do things with such genuiness, good or bad.
Because the young ones do not comprehend loss and defeat,
they are so full of hopes, so full of aspirations.

Faith is so simple for them, how about us?
We complicate so many things...
We are the weary, the cynical, the skeptical, and the fretful.
Sometimes, I hope life can be as simple as spelling f-a-i-t-h.

exam's over.

2008-11-26T23:31:00.007+08:00

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If you wanna catch a good movie now, choose Body of Lies!
It's really good! About Terrorism, mainly espionage actually.
On a side note, I really like Leonardo DiCaprio!
Because his acting is just so fine!
Oh, Russell Crowe put on quite a lot of weight,
I was pretty surprised because that's so not the Russell Crowe I know!
Haha maybe he put on weight specially for this film.
And I got so much to say about this film...
Triggered a lot of thoughts...
About this world we live in.
So many things we don't see huh?
Well probably cuz we're too sheltered.
Too giddy, later.

p.s. Huiling, stop whining!!! Haha. Don't stop me from sleeping, don't stop me from not talking.

not funny

2008-11-26T22:35:00.003+08:00

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I had the worst soci paper ever,
it's so bad I feel the pinch when I think about it.
I usually don't brood over papers,
I don't check answers, I just..don't care about past papers.
But yesterday I got my friend to calculate my estimated CAP after the exam.
It's not just the worst paper in NUS, but also worst paper in my entire life.
I'm so not kidding. Bugger.

annoyed

2008-11-24T20:58:00.002+08:00

The headache is really KILLING ME.

I'm not using it as an excuse to not study. I admit I've been distracted but I really have been suffering from headaches for almost a week already. Right now, I really feel that the headache is making me unable to study at all. Everytime I study, it feels like a torture. I admit I still play DOTA and watch shows but study requires me to process the information and think and it is really making me feeling sooo horrible. Damnit, I never felt so annoyed with suffering from a headache before. I feel like puking almost all the time. (No, I'm not pregnant, Kerwei, I could see that harmless joke coming from you already.)

did i tell you my best friend is back?

2008-11-23T20:39:00.007+08:00

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Guess when was this taken? When we were 17 years old! A lot of changes, in and out I guess. Look at us, the short hair, the glasses, the untrimmed eyebrows, the class tee, the B.U.M Equipment (or OP) tee, the swim shorts, the sandals. I miss those days a lot actually... The times we listen to Simple Plan and Good Charlotte, the times we posed stupidly (but happily) in the neoprint machines, the times we cooked 苦瓜炒咸蛋, the times we took bus 853 and then ate Wanton Mee at the coffeeshop near my house, the times we slept over at her house, the times we screamed at the top of our lungs, oh and the times we met up during common breaks in AJ to talk. Many more... A lot of changes, but we're still the same old Raijin and Fujin at hearts (:

Alright stop reminiscing. Anyway, yep Huiling is back and I've met up with her three times already! More accurately, she's been coming here (my hall) to supervise me! HAHA. Because I haven't been a good girl. Hmmm just really glad she's back. Exam starts tomorrow and ends on Tuesday, yay. Going to enjoy myself on Tuesday I hope! Haven't gone out in a longggggggg time, rather, I haven't enjoyed myself for a longggggggg time. And when I do on Tuesday, it's with my best friend (: Haha am I talking like a kid? But it's cool, I like feeling like one! Come Tuesday come! I want pasta!

Today the guys told me that I am fitter now all because of the scares and nonsense they've been giving me, they gave all sorts of weird and retarded reasons. Honestly, this is the third year and I'm not getting better at this, at getting freaked out. I woke up today, feeling all groggy because I didn't sleep well, and went to wash up before lunch with them. I walked out of the toilet and saw two of them waiting outside my room. As I entered my room, one of them shouted, "Quick Timo, come down! Let's go, Jo's ready." So I closed the door behind me, wanted to put down my toiletries and change. Then Timo..suddenly popped out from under my desk and went "ROARRR", I screamed like a mad woman. He hid there and waited for me... Previously he hid in my wardrobe... And that's not all, during dinner time I went to the study room to look for another friend and he knew I was going to look for him. He actually hid behind the railing just to wait for me to go up and then grab my ankle, so I screamed again and pleaseeeee, the room was filled with people studying............. They asked me why I get scared so easily even after so many experiences... Tell me, who wouldn't get a shock???

Okay, stop I know I should stop blabbering on. And I Shouldn't have skipped church today, right Jac? God is awesome! (:

don't have to hide

2008-11-22T18:08:00.004+08:00

©2008 *theFouro

I said, "I can't trust You with all my heart." He told me not to worry because He is the strength of my heart... He not only sees my brokenness, He takes it as if it's His. Then He told me that my flesh and my heart may fail, but He never fails, for He will be the strength of my heart and my portion eternally.
How could I ever thank You enough?
I am just a flower quickly fading but still, you catch me when I'm falling.

scary.

2008-11-22T00:01:00.003+08:00

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humans...really can't be trusted.
myself too, of course.
once the code is broken, it remains.

this is catastrophic

2008-11-20T20:14:00.007+08:00

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I don't what's wrong, I don't know why I am so unmotivated. I think I've been too caught up with my brochure, I got too carried away. I just spent my time slowly today settling my brochure and website submission. Then I had dinner and I started watching 'Dexter' from six plus until now. It's 816pm now and I haven't started studying for my two papers next week! Oh dear, this is bad. I know I shouldn't even be here typing this entry. Haha. And damn, I'm..working tmr. For three hours only but it's at Raffles Place so plus travelling time, I'll probably waste five hours or more tmr. I don't like sociology.........................just suddenly, or maybe just for a while.

Anyway, 'Dexter' is quite an unorthox drama. It's about serial killing and the main character is a sociopath. They use profanities a lot, more than 'Entourage', with an addition of salacious small talks. It's so unlike any other mainstream drama serial. It really shows the dark side of human beings - as in taking lives - in a psychotic manner; there's a lot of blood (the main character is a blood splatter expert). Well, as compelling as it might sound, I quite enjoy it and yet at the same time getting myself freaked out quite a little as I watch. Not because I'm quirk, but because it reminds me how imperfect we humans are and how ugly this world can get. The gruesome graphics certainly give me the creeps but really, the messed-up human minds and behaviours are the real buggers, it's disturbing... Note: I said how ugly the world can get, not that it doesn't have its beautiful side. I never like blood but somehow I like war shows, basically thriller over romance. I'm not a..woman who chooses 'Definitely Maybe' over 'Saving Private Ryan'. But of course, there are exceptions, and 'Pearl Habor' is one, a brilliant blend I say. Watching 'Dexter' is really quite a reminder of reality and that we are such blessed and protected people in Singapore. Haha you might be wondering why the heck I'm blabbering so much on shows, it's not abrupt, it's a long-lost interest. I used to love films and serials.

But, but, but. I am really satisfied with my brochure!!! :D I sent a copy to HFH Singapore, I hope they'll like it! They actually got me to send them the flier I previously did for the same module and would be considering using it! I must say I'm pretty excited about it! (:

Okay, I should stop steering away from the right direction. Moving to books now, RIGHT NOW!

Study hard friends! (: And break a leg!

un..productive.

2008-11-19T22:02:00.003+08:00

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Oh man, it's already 10pm and I haven't gotten anything done today! Sigh, wasted a day! And my friend printed my brochure wrongly so I have to go out to print tmr... Urgh, but it's my fault he printed wrongly! I did nothing much today, just watched videos and erm wasted time walking around (but got nothing settled).

The only good thing today is to meet up with Huiling finally! (: She came to hall to find me!

Okay, I better start studying tmr, I only have four days to study for TWO modules, of which one I never attended the lectures. BADDDDDDDDD.

I am gleeful (:

2008-11-18T16:01:00.004+08:00

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34 means 5 weeks before derr's back.
34 means Huiling's back today.
34 means 7 weeks before bro's back.
34 means one week to end of examinations.
34 means 3 days to end of final project.

Anyway, I woke up smiling today! Yes, I really did (:
Because I'm still feeling sooo loved from last night's surprise,
and because I'm thinking of meeting Huiling for supper later!
As much as I grumble about Publications projects,
(first, newsletter & flier, and now a website & a brochure)
I realised I do enjoy working on them very much.
Love and hate? I definitely think so.
I think it's because I really like design & lay-out.
Time is running out but I'm taking my own sweet time...
I've finished the website but touch-up is still needed.
(Thank God, I got derr and wl to render me some help!)
I also finished one side of the brochure yesterday,
but I still have another more side which I have yet to plan,
and the numerous misc publication criterions - these are the bitches.
I was watching 'Dexter' just now and it is a..very unique drama serial!
It's gruesome, smart and..well it just gives me the creeps.
Maybe I should watch another episode then start doing work!
Later~

Blessed 2nd Year (:

2008-11-18T01:29:00.008+08:00

from me2you

Derrick Liao, you really caught me off-guard, absolutely off-guard.
I didn't expect that much from you.
It's not because I've underestimated you,
but simply because
you've gone the extra mile.
Only you have the ability to break my heart...
But only you, again, have the capacity to fix it
and fill it with so much love & joy.
Thank You for the gift, I'm so overwhelmed and moved,
that my words have become superfluous.

from you2me

You're simply the best.
I love you (:

Oh no..!

2008-11-17T20:15:00.003+08:00

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I should stop getting distracted.
Okay, it's not really a distraction.
I only planned to spend at most two hours on it,
in the end I spent five hours..!
Well, it's something I couldn't not do!
It's rather simple but I'm satisfied! (:
I better start doing my brochure now... ROAR.
Oh, and yay Huiling's back already!

it is comfortable, and broken in

2008-11-16T19:08:00.006+08:00

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And maybe when your heart and soul are burning
You might see
That everytime Im talking with you
It's always over too soon

2 more days to 731 days (:
(it's a leap year)

not so, comfortable, after all

2008-11-15T18:53:00.002+08:00

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Time, you can stop now, just stop right there
and don't move until I say so.

uncross the line

2008-11-14T23:31:00.001+08:00

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Am I supposed to be all the time understanding and least demanding?
Today is just not the day.
I don't even know what's wrong.
I got chided and that really left me puzzled.
I thought maybe I deserved it, maybe I was really kicking a fuss.
But no, I was just being me earlier on.
You should know me, know how I am.
Still, I explained and waited..for hours.
And for nothing in the end,
no response no nothing.
I feel like a total idiot.
I'm sorry.
Yes, I really am sorry.
There's no sarcasm intended if you wonder.
(cuz for all that I've said above, it's odd to say sorry but I freaking am)
I'm sorry for being imperfect.
And I'm sorry again because,
this imperfect me, will never be perfect.
No I'm sorry, I should say...
this imperfect me, can never be perfect.
I really really detest to be walked out on, without a word.
Thought we passed that stage?
Let's face it, apparently not.
I am such an idiot.

freed, now.

2008-11-13T17:41:00.005+08:00

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For quite some time, I've been...just updating my blog very briefly,
sometimes quite intense.
Little did I realise that Hey I'm at Post 39 already!
From 113 to 39, it's been 74 days
(and Derrick Liao, I got my math right this time.)
In less than 40 days,
I'll be at the airport waiting for derr's arrival, derr's return (:
Oh, and in less than 5 days,
we would be done with our sophomore year (:

Thank You for...
remembering something you usually don't,
and valuing something you normally don't,
all just because I value it.
You're such a gem, movingly treasured by me...

Last week was quite an unpleasant week,
I was sick and emotionally affected by certain stuff.
But..thank God for my family, derr, Bro, hl and von.
Haha although most prob didn't know what exactly was wrong.
I feel so much peaceful this week... (:
I have a really crappy final project to complete though, ROAR.
Okay, back to work.

Our love is, comfortable and so broken in.

domino effect

2008-11-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

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all good things come to an end.
same goes for the bad things...

voiceless

2008-11-11T20:58:00.004+08:00

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I hate to be in a position I can't comfort someone who is sad.
I hate to be speechless but I really can't find the words.
So, I just look at the person and say, "I understand..."
and well yeah,
"I'll be right here when you need to talk..."
Sure I mean it but how much do such words alleviate one's pain?
I will pray...

run to Him

2008-11-10T19:58:00.002+08:00

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I need strength.
I need peace.
I need you.
I need You.

awakening

2008-11-09T17:34:00.000+08:00

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WAKE UP, WAKE UP!

time will never meet his Maker

2008-11-09T01:56:00.002+08:00

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8th Nov 2008
Suddenly I don't mind, or rather, I wish time could pass quickly...
So that all of you would be back by my side...
Can't believe I actually feel this way only now...
Bro has another four years,
Huiling has another three years or so,
Jiunn has another two years,
Cai has another three years I think.
Life..I don't know what to say about life now.
Hurry, hurry...

one by one

2008-11-07T22:24:00.002+08:00

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Let me get over with this flu and I'll be back, hopefully.

...

2008-11-06T19:57:00.002+08:00

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I don't even know what to say now.
Just want to quickly get over with November.

it's bleak.

2008-11-05T15:10:00.009+08:00

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The downpour is not helping, not even the slightest bit.
At every flash of the lightning, I brace myself for the thunder.
Yet, at every clash of the thunder, I squirm like a wimp.
Every time the wind howls, I feel a cold chill, a grieved one.
Every time the raindrops fall, I feel my heart sinking an inch.
Why didn't the wind take away my insanity?
Why didn't the rain wash away my doldrums?
Why does the sun hide its face behind the grey sky?
Why does the medicine not make me feel better?

I can't fathom, not yet, and my heart is stinging.

At sixes and sevens.

2008-11-04T21:45:00.003+08:00

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I never thought I'd say this but yeah, I rather study one more year than start work. My mother and sister asked me few nights ago what I'm gonna do when I graduate next year, seriously I'm not very sure. Yes I always say PR but sometimes I feel that I'm not cut out for it. I hate to use the word regret or say if only, because I don't want to succumb to such adverse thoughts. But darn, I want to experience NOC pretty badly, I think -- NUS Overseas College where undergraduate gets to work and study at the same time for a year. Well, if I do get accepted for honours program, I'll probably apply for NOC. I said if cuz my results barely hit the mark and it's not easy to get into NOC... And there are also other significant reasons why I want to go NOC... I actually feel kinda lost now, suddenly, and I loathe this feeling. Things took quite a big turn for me ever since I graduated from secondary school and I don't really know what the reasons are. I don't quite know what I really want, at least for now...

Well, today I was just wondering... Why..did God place my best friends overseas and me here... All three of them..and what about me? It's quite frustrating sometimes...

And my fever refuses to go away. I've already taken so many fever tablets but it still persist. And my flu...is causing me to finish almost half a box of tissue in a day. I can't concentrate on my work, anything but work.

I am angsty.

running a temperature

2008-11-03T19:12:00.002+08:00

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Sometimes I really hate that time passes too quickly...

Yeah, maybe.

2008-11-03T02:01:00.001+08:00

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The great man once said
"Don't give him the illusion of being pursued."

1386/2200

2008-11-02T04:35:00.002+08:00

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Unproductive and distracted.

My God of Reconciliation.

2008-10-31T22:26:00.006+08:00

Earlier on, I was editing the photo for Yvonne and suddenly I was wondering about the verse that she shared with me during the first lesson. She used that verse as an answer when I asked her how Jesus was able to overcome sins for ALL of us. I know it's a verse from Romans 5 but I didn't take my bible out and search for it. Then just a while ago, I went to read derr's QT and my jaws dropped when I saw the title...it's Reconciliation through Christ. Well I am shocked (I think derr is shocked too) because yesterday I was pretty bothered by reconciliation and blogged about it and derr's QT happened to be on reconciliation as well... And the key verse of his QT is the verse I've been trying to recall today, it's also the verse Yvonne shared with me. Praise God (:

"For just as through the disobedience of the one man the many were made sinners, so also through the obedience of the one man the many will be made righteous."

- Romans 5:19

lead me

2008-10-31T20:45:00.006+08:00

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I may not know her for a long time, but she's really special to me. She's someone I know I can always rely on, someone who genuinely cares for me... I'm really thankful to God, He led me to her through derr (: What a wonderful blessing.

Is this what you want for me God?

2008-10-30T23:46:00.004+08:00

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You are a God of reconciliation.
One by one, You make me step in front of the paths that were broken. (before?)
Tell me, dear Lord, is this what You want?
For me to reconcile and to love my enemies...
For sure is for the latter,
For I'd like to think so is for the former...

Okay I know I'm not making a lot of sense here.
We'll see...

give blood give life (:

2008-10-29T15:20:00.005+08:00

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I feel good now because I just donated blood (: I like to know I'm able to help, better still save lives, by giving blood. This is my fourth time donating blood and it happens to be the most painful experience. The nurse who attended to me was probably not very familiar haha. I didn't feel any pain after donations previously but I can feel the sting now! Actually the doctor said my blood pressure is lower than usual today, meaning lower than the minimum level to donate too but he gave the green light in the end. That's probably the reason why I am feeling giddy now haha. And the song 'With You' played in the hall just now probably made me nauseous too hurhur... Okay gonna take a break now.

ennui

2008-10-28T18:30:00.007+08:00

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I'm getting so bored...

Oh, anyway below is a flier I've done for Habitat For Humanity Singapore, for one of my CNM modules! It's an amateur production because I'm SO new to Adobe InDesign. So gonna lose out to the other pros in this module, damn. The 40% final project is to create a website for the organization and it's individual work. Freaking FOURTY PERCENT. In fact, everything is solo for this module. This is the only solo CNM module around man. Urgh, GG.

translation

2008-10-28T00:43:00.001+08:00

Really..?

2008-10-27T21:54:00.004+08:00

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I caught a glimpse of what my life would be without you.

Not a pretty picture.
©2007-2008 ~ xLadyDaisyx

search my heart

2008-10-26T23:21:00.003+08:00

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Today's follow-up was really good, really poured out my heart...
How many people can you actually really pour out your heart to?
It's hard to trust sometimes, but it's even tougher to not trust...
Celebrated my 21st birthday with slackers!
Thank You Xiulu for organizing (:
And thanks a lot for sending me back son!
I'm really worn out, going to watch Chuck now yay.

ambivalence

2008-10-25T16:07:00.007+08:00

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I really believe that song is food for the soul for everyone.
Some songs you just love...like David Cook's Always Be My Baby.
Some you just loathe...like Cyndi Wang's 爱你. (Why do I even remember this title...)

And several you love and hate at the same time..?
For me,
Lips of an Angel by Hinder - by the way, what a screwed up content...
Run by Snow Patrol - guilt.
我不配 & 搁浅 by Jay Chou - super emo.
9 Crimes by Damien Rice - another screwed-up...
Promiscuous Girl by Nelly Furtado - yeah, I know it's dumb.
With You by Chris Brown - seriously with..my ass.

Okay, I can't remember what else already.
And this post shows how unfocused I am because I've a lot of work but I still have the mood to type such rubbish out.

DAMN SIAN.

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2331h:
Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Pslam 139:23-24

A Simple Song period

2008-10-24T03:27:00.007+08:00

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"Yep it was a great trip, we really enjoyed ourselves!"

to jiunn (:

2008-10-23T20:43:00.002+08:00

Eight years of friendship.
I really cherish.
All the best in Exeter.
God bless (:

thank you dear (:

2008-10-23T01:03:00.010+08:00

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22nd Oct

I woke up with a heavy heart knowing it was my last day in HK with derr. It wasn't even a day, we woke up at 8am and my flight was at 11am, just two hours left. Okay heavy heart might be a little exaggerated but you get my drift... The past 7 days was probably the fastest week of this whole semester. The thought of leaving derr, taking the plane alone and then lugging the heavy luggage all the way back to NUS was really dreadful. We went to one of the restaurants nearby to have dim sum breakfast before heading to the airport. Took last few shots before I went to the boarding gate. And so that marked the end of my 7-days 21st celebration in HK with derr. I still remember so clearly the first day I walked out of the arrival gate to meet derr, he was standing there smiling at me. Here I am now, sitting alone in my room and missing his presence so much. I don't wanna sound ridiculous because he'd only be away for another two months! But I guess I feel this way because I really enjoyed every single moment spent there with him. We slept less than six hours every night and walked around for more than 13 hours everyday, didn't even take cab at all. Almost no time was wasted cuz he had everything planned out and he knows the way around. Okay end of whining. I am happy this trip materialized and that my 21st birthday was made special. I had nothing much to worry this whole trip, except..losing our belongings. The place is great, the food is good but most of all, the companion was ideal (: I deeply appreciate everything...

I really thank God, for blessing me with derr (:"You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely"

~end day 7

times flies when we're having fun

2008-10-22T22:26:00.018+08:00

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19th Oct

It was a Sunday and so we woke up really early to go church together! (: Before leaving for church, we had breakfast at Cha Chaan Teng in HKUST! We were soooo tired but I know we were both excited! I was really pleased..cuz it'd been a long time since we last went for worship together. Had a great time worshiping God together, really (: A pity we forgot to take photos at the church. It's called The Vine, what a nice name. After church, we rushed off to Tsim Sha Tsui to get our ferry tickets to Macau. Oh, I didn't get Agnes B in the end! But it's okay, save money! Macau is quite a..strange place haha. Like they have so many different cultures existing in the same places together. We walked non-stop man. Tried their famous portugese egg tarts and pork chop burger! Hmmm most of the main attractions were quite below expectations but I am glad I finally visited Macau! My goodness, The Venetian Macau is really pretty! The casino is...gigantic. We didn't stay long cuz we had to rush to Zhuhai to check into the hotel but it's okay! Just happy we managed to take a look there! (: We rushed off to the customs to cross over to Zhuhai and thank God, it was a smooth trip! The dinner at Zhuhai was quite a satisfying one! It was my first time trying the authentic Chinese xiao-chao. The portions were insanely huge for just two of us but we finished it! HAHA yes were were starving! We walked around for more than 13 hours man!"寫一首簡單的歌　讓妳的心情快樂
愛情就像一條河　難免會碰到波折
這一首簡單的歌　並沒有什麼獨特
好像我　那麼的平凡　卻又深刻"

~end day 4

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20th Oct

Woke up early again to go to the ferry terminal to pick Kang Hao up! We were gonna shop at the Gong Bei underground shopping mall! But oh man..what a disappointment! For the three of us and for derr and me AGAIN. Because the season is changing to winter, long sleeves were found everywhere instead of the normal apparels! We were quite frustrated because the to-and-fro ferry tickets cost SGD$70 each! But I guess it was alright for derr and I since we went to Macau (in case you wonder, Macau and Zhuhai are just a border apart, like Singapore and Malaysia). The food in China are so cheap..okay derr said we shouldn't say cheap, we should say not ex! The price of the portugese egg tarts in Zhuhai is half of that in HK! The price of a whole cake (a slight smaller one) is 8.60 RMB - . - Man, we forgot to buy cakes and egg tarts back to HK, what a pity!!! Had a good lunch at the HK cafe and the prices are half of that in HK. We started shopping at around 12pm and our ferry back was at 830pm haha. We stopped for high tea at a xiao long bao shop and the xiao long baos are so...not ex again! Rarrr, like 8 for 9 RMB! I think Kerwei and HJ will kee siao if they go there. Anyway, I must say derr's and my bargaining skills are so much better than the previous trip! LEVEL UP! Most of the time, we start slashing around half the prices the stall keepers offer us! HAHA. If they refuse to give in, we'd use the-walk-away method and they work most of 95% of the time! Like, this shopkeeper offered me the clutch I like at 168 RMB and I managed to bargain until 70 RMB! HAHA. We learnt not to fall for the innocent faces anymore. Oh well, we didn't buy a lot cuz of the season change!!! But I'm relatively satisfied. I totally knocked out on the ferry back and derr actually studied a while cuz he had test the next day. We went for dinner at a Cha Chaan Teng before going back to HKUST. DAMN TIRED cuz we were out for more than 13 hours again! Poor derr still had to study for his test when we got back to school and that was when I start uploading photos on facebook hahaha. Oh yay, we did laundry together! I'm really glad to be able to learn more about his life in HKUST (:

"迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你"

~end day 5

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21st Oct

Derr went for his test in the morning and I slept in. When he came back and slept, I got up to pack up and settle some stuff since it was my second last day in HK. Man, I really felt quite sian at the point in time cuz I really really wished I had more time there with derr. Time really fly when we are having fun huh... Woke derr up and we left HKUST to check into a hostel at Mongkok before going to disneyland. Finally had my first wanton mee there! Oh, it was a first time visit to disneyland for both derr and I (: We took a lot of pictures! Man, could have taken more but the camera battery was dying so we had to save on many shots! Hmmm disneyland is a nice place but I don't think I'll go back there again unless my kids want to visit there in the future haha. The biggest draw should be the fireworks already but it wasn't that spectacular anyway. So.. I was just happy to have derr as my companion there haha (: Left disneyland after the fireworks to have claypot dinner at mongkok! Woo I love the claypot rice! And my all-time favorite yuen-yang! Walked around in mongkok again before going back to the hostel. My sixth and last night there ):

"朦胧的世界我们聊了多远
冰刀画的圈圈起了谁改变
如果再重来会不会笑笑骂骂
爱是不是不开口才珍贵"

~end day 6

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~continued from previous entry - Day 3 in HK
Tour around HKUST!

Part of the campus, erm some of the places are quite hard to find...

At one of the top levels at the campus!

On our way to the sea side!

At the sea side!

Dinner with derr's friends from HKUST!

~be right back.

Hello Hong Kong! Hello Boyfriend!

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Happy 21st to me!!! I must say it's really quite a special one to me (: I celebrated earlier with my family two weeks ago and a day before the actual with my hall friends. There are still a few groups I haven't gotten a chance to celebrate with! I've been rushing my work the past two weeks, it was mad! But it wouldn't had been so crazy if I didn't play dota with the guys! Oh man thank goodness they didn't marinate me this year! HAHA. But seriously...the abuses and nonsense they've been giving me is more than enough. I'm not kidding when I use the word abuse... Anyway I was rushing around before the flight to HK. Thank God Guan sent me to the airport and I had popeyes with him! The flight was smooth (: Then, ta-dah I saw my boyfriend waiting upon arrival! Had pasta with him for my birthday dinner! Man, I realised the last time I had pasta was with him just before he left! We always have pasta together you see! (:

"Happy birthday to you~
Your head's big that's true~
This year is so special~
We'll be together so cool~"

~end day 1

Derr's uncle and wife came to HK too so we met up with them for dim sum brunch and seafood dinner! Both meals were good! (: I felt so pampered! It's always this case when we kids are with adults right? We walked around the whole day! We only spent a little because we hope to grab better deals in Zhu Hai! Oh well, I doubt I'll spend a lot cuz I don't really regard this trip as a shopping spree, I hope!!! But I think I'll get an Agnes B wallet as a 21st gift from myself haha! Hmmm really thank God for derr cuz he arranged and planned everything in advance so we wouldn't be bored or waste time! (:"A way back into love..."

~end day 1

Here I am at HKUST and typing this entry now! Because derr is having his mid term now! Haha he studied for this mid term before I came over, oops. Finally met his friends here, they seem nice! (: Oh before he left for his mid term, he brought me around his campus! Man, the scenic views they got over here are really awesome! Really make me wanna study here as well haha! In fact, I'm at this cafe overlooking the sea now! How cool! And the weather here is sooooo good and windy! It's like 99 times better than Olio and the coffee is not bad! Awwww! After his mid term, we should be having dinner with his friends and then we are going to sing karaoke! Yay (: I'm really filled with joy and love (: Oh man I kinda dread leaving here already, haha!

"Imagine me and you...so happy together."

~to be continued

feeling good

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see you soon boyfriend (:

I've got a Beautiful Saviour

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Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you


To see the unseen, to see the eternal, to see You.

Hello Olio Cafe

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Work work my friends.

the u n s e e n

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part of the big story, God's story (:

C4 guys how love me.

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Night cycling turned fright cycling.

bring on the thunder.

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smile for me!

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want you to be happy (:

ennui

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No wonder we face so many challenges in life.

Troll Warlord is my nemesis.

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DOTA IS DETRIMENTAL

so stay away.

Thank God (:

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for this wonderful family.

"...For I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content"

October 5th is a good day.

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The hamster turns 22 years old.

God bless (:

exhausted.

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I'm so glad to be home...

wah lan eh

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MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY DEADLINES.

rewind

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almost two years already..

remember the days we exploit 'forever'?

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The days before uni started...

(Actually Teck's hairstyle changed a little, so cut him some slack.)

Take care jiunn!
Miss you bro!

Oh ya, check this out guys!

DO YOU REMEMBER THIS?
HAHAHA, yes Mr. Gan lost a bet (what's new?) and poor CK had to get a kiss from him.
Actually, CK looks like he enjoyed it.

It will be a really long time before ALL of us gather together.
Until then, shall we call Kelvin along to the BIG gathering when everyone is back? Won't be complete without him you know... hurhur (:

It's All His.

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The earth is the Lord's and everything in it.
1 Cor 10:26

It is still so difficult sometimes...
Go away, stop lingering in my head, you filthy doubts.

really dunno how...

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May God bless the broken road.

Why are all of you not around at the same time.............. Why.